Conflicts and contradictions

 There are days I wake up early enough to greet
 the morning sun,
feeling boosted and ready to spread yoga mat,
 and then there are days,
 when I am straight at the breakfast table the
 moment, I open my eyes.
Some nights I feel incompetent and drained, and
 then on the other moons when positivity and
 energy overflow.
I often talk about love all dreamy and shimmery,
as if it's the ultimate source of a meaningful life,
but then every cell in my body screams with
 practicality, skepticism and utter disbelief.
As the year pass, I've learned how we can
 gaslight our own feelings to the point where I
 believe it's all a mind game, yet I've also have
 tasted the bitterness of helplessness and
 surrender.
I can confidently stand on a stage and stare into
 hundreds of eyes, but the next moment,
I'll be completely silent and red on a table of
 two.....

When admiration and envy coincide.....🍂

 Can we tell the difference?

One day, it occurred to me that although we are so 
different from one another, are we not similar when we break things down?
Indeed, you and I are not the same. You have
lovely curled hair, whereas I have straight, boring flow.
You remind me of the high and low rhythmic
notes on a sitar, whereas I am simply straight
forward and lack any twist or turns.
Yes, you resemble the thousand pages of an
amazing philosophical book, much like your thick hair, while I am down to few pages of 
unfinished tasks.
Our hair alone may tell a narrative about how 
diverse we are.
However, it dawned on me one midnight.....would we be able to detect the difference if we chopped off our hair in to tiny pieces such that it breaks your curl and hides my boring straight flow.
Will we be able to tell the difference then?

(written long back....)